March 23rd, 2009

A Song Torn From My Archives

Wide Open

Why do we always do what the world wants us too
Pushin coercin us to do what we know we shouldnt do
Fightin then fallin and loosin we go where we shouldnt go
And finally we're gone so far we've forgotten what we aughta do

cause im torn___wide open
im torn____wide open for the world to see me as i am
emotional and alone

Why do we always find too late that we've gone too far
Pushed to the point where we have one choice and its way to hard
fought and we fell and lost givin this one way out
well i've paid my debt in full and all i wanna do is shout__shout out loud

cause im torn__wide open
Im torn__wide open for the world to see me as i am
emotional and alone

Well Im by myself now looking back at you and I
I see you with him and i cant explain what it is that i feel inside
it hurts so bad and u dont even seem to care one bit
I gotta move on move on but its gonna tear me_ wide open

cause you tore___ me wide open
cause u tore___me wide open for the world to see me as i am
emotional and alone
im torn__ wide open

(so ya that was not my first song written but prolly the one i think is the best when u add the guitar and stuff to it. this one was written just before i came here to lethbridge. its very much a slower played song)
  • Current Mood
    Creativly Distraught

I know wut i was feeling but wut the hell was i thinking.

Hmm so i was sitting in my room and wondering wut the hell to do fer the rest of my monday and noticed my airsoft gun lying on my desk. Dam now when bored maybe playing with ur 4x4 room with an airsoft gun shooting at about 270 feet/sec is not a good idea. Frick its prolly one of the most stupid ideas actually. Small plastic balls tend to ricochet rather well in confined spaces. Well first off i decided that i would set up pop bottles set up on the far side of the room (ya its not actualy that far but when u can hit something 90% of the time it really boosts ur confidence :P). And of course the first couple balls failed to bounce back and hit me so my confidence lv continued to be boosted and I started to shoot faster and in bursts of like two or three. So next I built a little lever to step on so the can threw through the air and i tried to hit it a bunch times as it is in the air. Well as I finished that a foreshodowing song came on "What was I thinking" by Dierks Bently. Now my situation was far from realationship problems but i deffinalty knew i was feeling "dam im clever" but wut was i thinking. cause as i bounced the can into the air i put my gun into automatic mode and hit the can three or four times and each and every ball flew straight back and i was subjected to that many friendly fire bullets. What do I have to show for it... well three lovely dots on my forehead due to my gun :). 

Well im going to do something a little less shoooting  orientated and a little more constructive. have a great day.

hasta luego

  • Current Mood
    A little stupid :P